I don't even know why I held on to you for so long

"I'm the best friend anyone could have asked for!"
You yelled at me through liquor lips and I nodded and said
"Yes, yes I know!"
And even though my eyes weren't as woozy as yours
I still felt my heart on my finger tips.
Only a minute passed
And then I was forcing your hand to my chest screaming
"This is where you are even if I'm not in yours!"
You seemed to like the answer so you smiled
And nodded
And said "Baby, we should go hang out with everyone else"
Only a minute passed
And there was Bacardi flowing from your tear ducts
With your accusatory hands waving in our faces
"I've never been able to trust anyone except you people!
You are all beautiful people!"
Not even a minute passed
With my head bobbing along to your heartbeat
And your toes curled cold around the back of my knees
And your voice falling low around the curls of my hair
"I don't trust you. I wish I could, and I want to, but I don't"
Seven hours pass
And you're on the other end of line
Calling my face awake from the puddle of salt water and drool
And desperation that has formed on the back seat of my car
So I didn't have to sleep in my lie filled bed.
"Morning pretty lady, ready to hit up brunch for some tots?"
And before I dispel whatever love I had left from my gut
Onto the forgiving asphalt beneath my (for some reason) bare feet
I can only think about
How I need to drink more on these occasions